Over the last two weeks, I have become beyond excited about the opportunity I will have in a few weeks to give birth to my precious Karrington Jay. I have found myself online looking at different labor techniques, birthing positions, and many other things that have to do with the wonderful gift of welcoming a beautiful spirit into this world. I have made my birth plan, knowing that some things might have to change depending on the situations that may arise, but I am confident in my decisions. I cannot contain my excitement much longer! I cannot wait to accomplish this wonderful step in my life, and the first in Karrington's!
I wanted to write this post to express some of my feelings, and my hopes for Karrington's delivery then, after she comes, I want to see if and how my perspective changes.
My philosophy about birth is very sacred to me, it is something that I have developed over my entire life, and being pregnant and thinking about welcoming my little girl into the world has fine tuned my perspective, and I am sure that as I actually experience this wonderful part of life that I will continue to have an amazement of the unbelievable things that my body can do. I have the highest respect for any woman who has, or aspires to give birth, there is a level of selflessness that I believe has to be present, for a mother risks her very life in the process of giving this precious gift. I am not just talking about a natural vaginal birth either, a woman sacrifices her entire body to her child, no matter the way the baby takes his or her first breath. I believe that a woman has instilled in her a divine guidance that allows her to love, understand, care for, and protect the wonderful child that is growing within herself. This was something that I never understood before I became pregnant... I was always worried that I wouldn't know how to love or protect my child, but the bond that I have experienced with my precious daughter has changed the way that I live my life, the way that I look at other people's children, and the love that I have for my own mom.
I believe that birth is not only the first step of this mortal life, but it is also one of the most beautiful parts of it, it is a sacred event where a precious child of our Heavenly Father is sent to be cared for by loving parents, reared in the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Our Father places these sacred spirits in our arms, expecting a complete and unfaltering love from us. I am extremely excited to experience giving birth, believe me, I know that it will be a challenge, most likely harder that I can imagine, but I also know that my body was designed with a grand purpose in mind; giving the gift of life. I believe that labor and delivery are just a small moment compared to the amazing events that are promised to occur forever after, and will be more than worth it. I believe that it is more than a moment, (give or take 24 hours), of pain, it is a time for me to sacrifice MY comfort and all that I have, to deliver my baby. I believe that my body was designed not only to deliver, but to recover in the proper ways, and my decision to do it unmedicated is a sacred choice that I have made. I understand that emergencies arise, and things don't always go according to plan, having said that, I trust in the Lord, and I will do whatever it takes to ensure my baby is safe.
There are many things in this mortal life that can bring us great joy, I believe that the greatest of all is the gift of life, the wonderful gift that I have to grow a human in my belly! And then to get her out of there and hold her in my arms, and teach her of her divine purpose, of her potential, of the promise that she has to one day rule on high in the mansions of our Father. This is my calling, a calling that I accept with all that I am.
